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Chapter 25
THE FIRE FLARED brightly, and I stood staring at it, a bit shocked by what I had done. I heard a startled gasp from one of the guests seated in the lobby.
“Oh, dear,” I called to the clerk. “I’m afraid I’ve ...”
“I’ll get something to put it out,” he said, darting from behind the desk and rushing off. I hoped he remembered that oil fires were not easily extinguished with water.
I looked down at the fire I had started. The oil was already burning itself out, and the marble floor was not going to let the fire spread. The group playing cards must have realized it as well, for they returned their attention to their game. With a quick glance around me, I slipped behind the desk and examined the rows of keys. It would only be a matter of seconds before the clerk would be back. Rupert’s room was on the floor above mine. If I remembered correctly from when it had been mentioned at the inquest, it was 211. My eyes scanned the keys. It was entirely possible that the police had confiscated all the keys to Rupert’s room, but no! There it was.
I grabbed the key, slipped it into my pocket, and slid quickly around the desk. A moment later, the clerk returned with a bucket of sand that he poured over the already-sputtering flames.
“I’m terribly sorry,” I said, and I meant it. Though I had been almost certain the fire would not spread, I couldn’t really have been absolutely sure. Had I taken a moment to think, I wouldn’t have done it. I should dearly have hated to add arson to my list of sins.
“It’s quite all right,” he said, though he was pale. “Are you hurt, Mrs. Ames?”
“No, no. I’m fine. Is there something I can do?”
“No, I’ll have someone clean up the glass. You’re certain you’re all right?”
“I’m terribly sorry,” I said again. “I was just going upstairs and ...”
“I think I have a torch behind the desk,” he said. He moved to pull open a drawer, rummaging around for a moment before removing a torch. Flicking it on, he handed it to me, obviously relieved to give me a source of light that did not involve fire and flammable liquids.
I turned toward the stairs, the guilty weight of the key hanging heavily in my pocket. I was so lost in thought that I nearly ran headlong into Gil and Olive, neither of whom saw me, as they descended the stairs, talking in low tones. They stopped at the foot of the stairs when I approached, both of them looking vaguely embarrassed.
“Hello, Amory,” Gil said. “I’ve just brought Olive down from upstairs.”
Olive’s face was pale and wan in the dim light of Gil’s lamp. She was wearing long sleeves, which I imagined must cover the bandages on her wrists. Aside from an initial glance, she didn’t meet my gaze.
“I didn’t mean to interrupt,” I said.
“Not at all,” Gil said. There was something odd in his demeanor, though I couldn’t quite detect what it was.
“How are you, Olive?” I asked.
“I’m all right,” she answered stiffly.
As anxious as I was to search Rupert’s room, I felt that perhaps now would be a good time to talk to her alone, before we were all cramped together in the sitting room. “Gil, would you mind very much if I spoke to Olive for a moment?”
Gil looked strange, drawn. He hesitated for a long moment and then nodded. He handed the light to Olive and left the two of us alone in stony silence. It seemed the best course of action would be to plunge ahead.
“Olive, I’m sorry if this question seems impertinent. In fact, I’m quite sure it will. But did you buy Rupert a gold lighter?”
She looked at me sharply, a frown creasing her smooth forehead. “I don’t know why everyone thinks ... No, I didn’t give him anything. I never cared for Rupert, though there was a time when we were together quite often. Aside from being a notorious flirt, he was not at all a nice man. Anyone could see that.”
I was confused by her sudden denial. “Then why ...” My voice trailed off. It seemed ill mannered to ask someone exactly why they had slit their wrists with a razor blade.
Sudden understanding flashed across her face, and for a moment some of the coldness left her features. “You don’t know,” she said.
“Know what?”
“You think I loved Rupert ...”
Something flickered in her eyes, and suddenly I knew, with absolute clarity, what she meant. I was blind, utterly stupid, not to have seen it before.
“You’re in love with Gil,” I whispered.
Her gaze hardened again before she looked away. “I suppose you think I’m terribly foolish, behaving the way I have.”
Everything began to slide into place: Olive’s behavior, Gil’s mysterious absences, the visit that had upset Olive in the hospital. It all seemed to make sense. I couldn’t believe that I had never guessed, but perhaps I had been too involved with my own affairs to take proper notice of the affairs of others.
“I’m the one who feels foolish,” I said. “I should have realized how you felt.”
“He’s mad about you, you know,” she said. There was no bitterness in her brittle smile or in the tears that glistened in her eyes. “Whenever someone mentions you, his eyes light up and ... I’ve made a perfect fool of myself trying to make him love me again. Or perhaps he never did, I don’t know ...”
Something about her words hit me forcibly, and I found that I felt on the verge of tears myself. Impulsively, I reached out and grabbed her hand. “I’m sorry, Olive ... You see, I too know what it’s like to love someone whose feelings are ... ambiguous.”
“Your husband,” she said.
It was my turn to smile sadly. “I sometimes believe he married me only to prove that he could.”
“I thought, when he came here, that perhaps you still loved him.” There was something so blatantly hopeful in her gaze that I felt somewhat ashamed of myself.
“I ... things are unsettled at the moment.”
She nodded. “Gil will take you in an instant, if you want him. If you decide you don’t, I’ll still be waiting.”
With that, she walked past me and toward the sitting room. Despite the desperation of her words, there was a quiet dignity about her as she walked away, and I thought that perhaps I had misjudged her.
I was glad she had gone, for I wouldn’t have been able to think of an appropriate reply. It was wrong of me, I knew, to keep Gil dancing in attendance when I hadn’t settled things with Milo. Yet I couldn’t quite bring myself to give him up, not when it was possible he might soon be all I had left.
I made my way up the darkened staircase, shadows flickering on the walls around me. It was rather eerie. The light of the torch only extended so far, and it was not until I was nearly to the first-floor landing that I realized there was someone standing there.
I lifted the torch and stopped, startled to see Milo illuminated by the feeble beam.
***
"Hello, darling," he said as he approached. “Awful weather, isn’t it? I was almost washed away on my way from the station.” He smiled, obviously exhilarated by the wretched weather. His clothes were soaked; it seemed he must have just come in from outside.
“Have you the key to our room? I’ve lost mine in one of my pockets.”
“I ... yes, I have it.”
We walked down the hall to our room in silence.
“I thought you’d gone to London,” I said lamely as we reached my door. I was so surprised by his sudden arrival, I could think of nothing intelligent to say.
“I did. Aren’t you going to kiss me?”
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